It seems like forever that John said goodbye and hit the road for places unknown. I am trying to adjust to life alone and not doing a very good job at it. No matter where we were in the world, John and I have always talked on the phone at least once a day, usually more. When I was in Japan, we spoke two times a day. The only time we missed talking to each other was if one of us was on a plane or he was on a mountain. After 3 days of nothing I took to the phone, texting him saying all I needed was a text that said safe. Finally..word that he was okay. Still have not talked on the phone, but the periodic updates by text have helped. It is like he is giving a practice run at what life will be like for me when he is no longer here. I can say........I do not like it. When you have spent over a quarter of a century with someone, they become a part of you. It is hard to function without them. I am hoping he won't be gone long and then we can start to enjoy life and the time left together.
I am trying to keep busy with family and friends. Took a drive to Moses Lake for Kelden's first birthday. I was so happy to have granddaughter Payton with me on the trip so that I wouldn't cry all the way over and back. She was great company
It was a great day. However, Kelden missed his grandpa! This past week I mostly just worked, came home and cried and then tried to read or watch TV. Poor Sadie was feeling so ignored. Wednesday night was Girl's Night at Auntie Kay's. Always nice to get together with her and celebrate birthdays. It is her birthday this week and was Kendra's birthday last week. Thursday I took the day off work. My sister walked over to the house for coffee. She is retired so has a lot of free time. I met Brianna for lunch at one of my favorite Kirkland spots to treat her to a late birthday lunch. We spent time walking around the town I love and miss.
As for the rest of this week and weekend....really mundane. I have cleaned carpets and closets. Fun! I really end up making a bigger mess as I clean! I did manage to take Sadie on a walk today since it is not raining.
I am trying to appreciate the small things, such as the gorgeous colors of fall and all the pumpkin fields near my home.
Hoping this week will be easier.